Well, its been quite some time since i last blogged.
Here to Congrat all whom graduated from polytechnics. =) Thanks and paiseh to BiFei and JunXian, for inviting me to your der Grad Day. Didnt want to emo there alone and make your sian diao on your der big day. Part of the reason is also that i dont wish to be there, my own reasons. Anyway, be it NS or Uni, do your best!
Warning! Emo content below, read at your own risk!
Still unable to fall aslp, kept listening to a same song at Youtube.
Trying to find somewhere to vent my emotions thus came over here.
These few days hadn't been well for me.
But tried to be normal, hiding them away.
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Not shared out
Pls do not ask about this part.
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Friends around me are graduated, working part times and waiting for NS.
While i'm still trying to finish my poly studies.
Can't help but think that way, i'm alone once again.
Perhaps alone from the beginning, not being myself.
To others, its no big deal.
But to me, its heaven and hell.
The only thing i can do now is to blame myself, myself and myself.
For over-relying on others, for not doing what i should do.
For making the wrong decision, for living in the past.
For trapping myself in my own barrier, for making excuses for myself.
For everything i do...
My bad points are increasing...
Cant seem to find a way to make me feel better.
To be continued....
Blanked out...
Things to be completed soon:
FYP
Exams
Napfa
Medical Checkup
Weekend Plans:
Great, 5am already....
Today's RP plan of gym and swimming was cancelled.
Saw from others' blog that on Sunday they might be going to Derek's house for movie.
Shall see if i'm going anot as i will be going secondary sch class dinner in the evening.
Hope everything will be just fine...
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