This will be a long post, sorry...
Yesterday i pangseh-ed ben and went bb,
so just now ran 1 round with him n derek.
After running, 3 of us went bb with weili.
Actually dont have the feeling for running n bb der.
But no choice, i had already agreed to go.
Reached there not long jiu injured my left thumb,
abit internal bleeding inside nails but now washed away.
Starting of match jiu tio scratch on my right hand.
Great, how great can it be?
Miss-ed lots of ball becos of these.
Thus half way i jiu no mood play liao.
I jiu relax down n see opp team keep score.
Sry for not doing my best..
I just cant control myself.
Cant help it, i had already lost the feelings for bball i once had in the past.
I no longer try my best to jump,
no longer able to layup,
no longer able to defend,
and mani more...
After the lights went off at 10pm,
i vent-ed out all my unhappiness out by shooting non-stop.
Great, 3/5 of which went in.
Better den wad i shoot in match.
Afterwhich, i drain-ed down half 1.5litres of Coke in big mouthful,
just like wad i did to the other half 1.5litres.
Lols just like ppl drain-ing down beer, just tat i'm using Coke.
I felt great! Always did tis when i'm not feeling very good.
Pls do not try this, its bad for health, thank you.
Sry for been so emo.
Had been wandering, wad am i actually to my friends?
Do you guys really wan me to speak out wad i think?
Even negative views? even when it will hurt some1?
If you guys wan, i can do it der.
If you really understand me, you will noe tat i would nv do tat,
rarely see me saying something bad about some1 behind their back or wad so ever.
I will keep these alone, so tat i will not hurt any1,
not becos i wan to be noble,
but just becos we are friends,
i respect every1.
Some said i had been hiding my true self,
closing the door tat other ppl cant understand me.
Yes i agree. But of wad i see, how can i open the door?
Some will say got any problem just share with him/her.
But will it actually help? My ans is no.
If it can be helped, i dont mind sharing it out.
But what about those which cant?
I noe mani will be disapproving of wad i'm saying,
running away from my problems,
but i still wan to say how i feel.
And i noe u all are trying to help me,
i really appreciate it.
To add-on,
recently a friend of mine asked me a question tat i'm actually dunoe how to ans.
Being close friends, always hanging around with each other,
do you really understand them?
I personally think tat its a simple yet profound question.
How mani of you can ans this?
Thanks Jx n Akira for chatting n your concerns.
Appreciated. =p
I'm already ok le.
Great, lost 5kgs in just 2 days.
2 days before i'm still stuffing myself with food n chocolates.
2 days after i had lost weight.
From 75kg to 70kg.
After seeing this,
i stuffed myself with whole plate of vegi, duck wings, rice and a rice dumpling which dad left for me.
6am liao, i think i go try slp bah...
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