Its now 4.35am, and i'm still not in bed. Not feeling quite well at the moment. Both mentally and physically... Physically due to the pain all over my body, Mentally deep in my heart. Some things are only meant to be kept unsaid. And tat's me. I had changed to become wads not me myself. This kind of change is not wad i wanted. Guess i need to learn how to reject wad i dont wan, instead of accepting it with an anything attitude. Had been going along with the flow for as far as i noe, nvr been happy, cos its not my own wants. I had chose Darkness as the path i walk... For any human even reading tis, hope you will not experience tis...
Really needs to heavily reflect on the way i am spending my time everyday. Wad a joke, i had not been truly studying since sec 4. I regretted doing so. Will be restricting myself from today onwards. No1 will understand my feelings, the feeling of being a drop-out.. And i foresee smth.. Btw my post aren't for catching attention, just my true feelings...
To Weisong, sorry, it's my bad. It wont happen again. Nth much will be explained, you can have any conclusion you wan...
P.S: Sorry if i had changed, even when the change is not wad i wanted... 5.30am...
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